Getting SCREWED
Argghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANGST!
What the F*** is going on!!!!!!!!!!
When did " I " become PUBLIC ENEMY NUMBER ONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!?
WHY THE F*** DO PEOPLE KEEP F****** WITH ME?????????????
WHAT THE F*** DID I DO TO THEM???????????????????????????????????????????
For the rare few.. let me explain. I have NO HUMAN contact at all. I live alone, I cannot find any friends on the planet, people keep abandoning me, nobody likes me anywhere I go, people always end up trying to fuck me over and hate me but I dont know why, nobody speaks to me.. nobody gives a toss about me except me. It is SICK! this is F****** TORTURE!! and its happening in 2006!!! I am an intelligent woman, 36 years old, tall, attractive, sociable, heterosexual, relatively normal, I am not a drug addict but I am addicted to cigarettes, .. I am a good communicator without a doubt, I have loads of ideas, I am easy to get along with, I love people, I love animals, I love music.. But, I am SO ALONE I am going to DIE of a broken heart!!!!!!!!!!!
This is DEFINITELY a conspiracy to F*** up my LIFE!!!!!!!!!!! I am terrified to make new friends - especially men, in case they think I am a hooker!!!! I AM NOT A HOOKER AND I HAVE NEVER BEEN ONE!!!!!!!!!! I am just GETTING SCREWED OVER and everyone hates me!! which is why I am alone all the time and have NO *UCKING FRIENDS ON EARTH!
I believe the attitude is - "just kill yourself then everyone will be happy". "You are a loser, everyone on earth hates your guts, just do the f****ing world a favour and DIE". .... this is my impression on what the world thinks of me.. it's not so nice, I find it difficult and unpleasant to say the least and I cant f***ing figure out what!! I did to make the world hate me soooooooo much!
Honestly - I call my "friends" and they never answer... I make arrangements with people and they stand me up. No-one EVER phones me, my family hate my guts and NEVER EVER speak to me... my life totally SUX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whenever I apply for a job, usually, they dont bother to get back to me. I cant even get a job as a PIZZA delivery driver!! WHAT THE *UCK IS WRONG WITH THIS WORLD????
What annoys me like nothing else is that it is obvious to me how I can fix my life up.... find friends, get a job.., get a social life, a purpose... but it is so f$$$ing pointless because everyone seems to hate me sooooo much they dont want me to fix my life up! it's totally f****ed up!!!
Easy to call someone a loser while you are stepping on their face!!!!!
Is this JUSTICE??????????? A FAIR DEAL???????????
NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOMEBODY out there!!! HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
f###. this is so f***ing wrong.
Will the real people in the world please stand up????
I AM A YOUNG LOOKING OLDER WOMAN, AND I CAN RELATE TO WHAT YOU ARE SAYING, I WAS ALWAYS INTELLIGENT, ATTRACTIVE, NICE TO PEOPLE. I KEEP GETTING SCREWED OVER BY MEN, THAT IT SUCKS. THEY PLAY GAMES. YOUR NOT A LOOSER, YOU JUST SHOULD CHANGE THE PLACE YOU ARE LOOKING FOR MEN. DO A MAKE OVER. YOU HAVE TO BECOME A LITTLE OF A BITCH MY DAUGHTER SAYS, DONT ALWAYS AGREE WITH A MAN, THEY SEEM TO LIKE A CHALLENGE. THERE ARE NO FAIR DEALS IN LIFE TAKE IT FROM ME. I WORKED FOR EVERYTHING I HAVE NO MAN GAVE IT TO ME. I WAS MARRIED TWICE AND TWO LOOSERS. THEY PULLED ME DOWN. DONT GIVE UP BUT CHANGE THE TYPE OF GUYS YOU LOOK FOR. LOOK INTO THE GUY NOT THE OUTSIDE OF HIM. I WISH YOU LUCK AND HAPPINESS
Thanks for your comment. You have the right idea there - it's all up to us as individuals. That post had a two-fold message though, I was not only being stuffed around by men, everything in my life was going biserk despite all my efforts. I admire you that you have changed your outlook after marrying twice. I hope you find the right partner if that is what you want. I realise that if we did find the right person, we might not need to get married or we might marry but keep it quiet. Marriage doesnt have to be a big deal, its the rest of your life together (in theory) that you should work on. In Australia marriage is not as popular as it once was. I am 36 and have not found a husband, but I am not the type to give up on men. Funny that you say look into the guy and not the outside of him, I think that used to be my problem. I can always see the potential in people, especially in men and then I love them to bits. Men might always run from me because I am too giving, it may be they feel smothered. I find it very hard to handle when I am left. It's like losing a husband, I have been completely heartbroken about 4 times. You have to try to get on with your life without them in it and its so unfair, you have to live like they died but they are still alive. Love is one of the most powerful forces on earth but we all need to be careful, being exposed emotionally can leave you wide open to be hurt. I am trying to be more detached these days and not take things too seriously. Keeping my eyes open but not seeking. I am doing some inner healing right now. Thanks for your post.