Evidence of hope
Mood: Worried about the future
Listening to: radio
Truth is an ugly word these days.. so many people lie about what they really think, why they think it, how they feel about this or that and why it upsets them ...
It seems to me that the best way to solve any problem is to talk about it. As soon as all the feelings are out in the open, the sooner they can all be addressed, considered and respected.
I have no doubt that we are all in a constant state of growth. After all, that is what it is all about ( life that is ). If we dont grow, we cant reach our potential and obviously, it takes work, understanding and education. And.... nobody has all the answers which is why it is so important that we learn things from each other, teach, help.
In the last year or so.. and I hate to bore people with details of my dull life. (Actually, I am very damm grateful for it.. ) I want to explain what got me through because I had very bad drepression..
Not that depression is such a harsh thing but it does have the potential to destroy and end lives if people let it... I realised that I had to learn this so that I could help other people. And I have realised that is probably why I am here on the earth.. to help .
The scary thing about depression is that if you let it take over it can be quite hard to stop..
One of my sayings is 'believe it and so it will be'.
This is so important in so many ways.. if we believe there is no hope, it creates a self-fulfilling prophesy in our minds.. which goes on and on.
It is so important to continue to have hope.
I have been on my own for a long time. I have lots of dreams about what Id like for my own future and in my life but I felt, in my situation, maybe it was selfish and it would be impossible to achieve them anyway.. I was beginning to lose my hope. I was afraid to be alone without anyone to help me that I could trust. I felt that the world was against me. I was also losing my faith and my trust in the universe.
Its obvious to me now that the universe wants us to be happy, to grow, share our world and live peacefully together.. and thats hard too.. growing up can be hard.
Recently I went for a walk at the beach and was looking into the water.. I came accross some tourists photographing a couple of pelicans walking about on a boat ramp.. the pelican looked at me and said 'can you please help?' . I was shocked !! - was this creature talking to me!!!!!??? Anyway, I walked slowly past and stood in a spot nearby to watch.. the pelicans had obviously been frightened by the attention and went back into the water..
I thought.. hang on if I can hear them thinking.. maybe they can also hear me so I thought to them ' walk back up the ramp ' and for pete's sake THEY DID!!!! Wow!! I was a little surprised took some photos of the pelicans ( they are such beautiful creatures ) and wandered off.
I walked to a point to look out into the ocean to see if I could see any whales.. while there a fairy wren flew over near me squarking and carrying on flying from bush to bush.. I love those birds so much I couldnt help feel happier.. I looked out admiring the ocean for a few minutes more.. Then I glanced around over my shoulder and there was about 10 of them flying about.. It seemed to me as if they wanted me to take their photo - they kept flying into the cutest positions on the hill.. in the light, five of them in a line etc - I couldnt help take their photo - it was like a photo shoot for fairy wrens.. GeeZe!!
Anyway.. all this is getting off the track a bit..
Basically, I am here today because of my love for the world, my desire to learn and my understanding of the need to respect all of the creatures, people and cultures the world has to offer. Two faiths which I have tried my best to understand and follow are christianity and buddhism and they have both helped me and saved my life.
I am so convinced there is a God, I will never doubt him again. He loves us sooooooo much and he knows what we are going through..we are all growing, learning to live together, respect and love each other.. I know he wants us to be a happy planet, get along with each other, and accept each other.. it sounds to me that its not going to happen over night.. but it IS going to happen.. :)
Can anybody who needs help with anything .. please write to me because you never know - I might be able to help.. and whoever you are and where-ever you are from I care about YOU.
cheerio and come back soon.
