Isha's findings

Just reading an astrology site about the winding down of 2006. Apparently it is really important now, to do some reviewing of the year and inner work.. what has happened, why, how .. what things have happened this year that have happened to you before and what have you learnt etc etc.

It is really important that instead of stagnating into bog this christmas we all try to move forward positively.. the over-riding emotional outlook we form now will shape us for the next 12 months.

For anyone else who struggles with depressive tendancies, I wish you, I wish all of us a more positive outlook.. looking at the good, not the bad, the gain and not the loss.. the positive not the negative. I for one can't afford to be depressed another 12 months!!

Personally I wish (if Santa is listening) for a permanently positive mindset from now on so that I don't make bad choices, trust the wrong people and think I am totally crap etc etc ... I also wish for the conspiracy against me to end and for the truth (that I am actually a worthwhile person) to come totally out, I wish that the block against every thing I do stops so that I can have runs of success rather than runs of disaster and bad luck.. I wish that the guilty people who have been screwing me over get their just deserts and I get some amazing monetary reward for putting up with them...

When I do get my monetary reward, in whatever form that is.. a win or a payout or just a great job where people arent jealous and dont try to sabotage me.. I will go travelling around the world for about 3 years and try to meet people from every culture on earth.!

Sounds good to me!... And of course I wish for world peace and poverty to end and every person in the world to be happy and not oppressed.

Cheerio.

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Recently (last night) had a dream of a meeting with my all-time favourite movie star. In the dream we were smitten with each other, seemed to have known each other our whole lives and had taken off to a private sanctuary to spend some time together. There was no doubt in either of our minds about how we felt and a hello kiss automatically enacted, was so real I was frightened. The impression of his lips on mine, lingered well after I woke up.

For some reason I have an inflated inner ego which tries to tell me that anything in life is possible if you believe it is and believe in yourself. Is this a survival mechanism natural to all of us? Right now I am in amidst a life challenge, providing significant stress so as to cause the odd sleepless night. Could be my inner ego is just trying to tell me not to worry so much, or, trying to be cruel. 

My existence is by no means glamorous. I fail to see the point in my inner ego even suggesting I could be loved by a movie star. No doubt it is a carrot towards encouragement to continue looking for that elusive man of my dreams..

Right now I live in one of the most beautiful places on earth in Australia, QLD, the Sunshine Coast (aptly named)... I am a little uncertain as to whether I will stay here or venture off. For the moment though, this is home. It may be that I go to try to find the private sanctuary, a home in the mountains or out west in the countryside with or without my dream man.

Cheerio bloggers.