Isha's findings

Aug 31, 2006 at 04:22 o\clock

We are not alone

Mood: Contentedly optimistic
Listening to: Trance (Classical for geeks)

Facing the world alone, emotionally or psychologically stripped to your bare soul because of tragedy, circumstance or ongoing loss, we all have one thing in common. We can either get up, dust ourselves off and move on or we can sit there and agonise in remosrse over what has happened.

Sometimes we are the only person for miles facing a tragedy and it seems to be unreal and defy the concept of justice in the known universe. You might find yourself asking 'why did this happen to me?!!!' etc.

I realise why it does happen. There is something that I, you, whoever will learn when we get through the challenge, the universe wants us to grow. As though we were getting gifts of impossible situations to get through and learn from. By getting though them, we gain insight, wisdom and strength which we can share. My attitude is I CAN get up and dust myself off, I ALWAYS DO and I ALWAYS WILL.

But there is something else to this, something more... I KNOW that God is out there and he is watching and he is connected to me from within. My spirit is made of his strength somehow. When in the middle of some disgusting injustice though, it can be hard to keep a connection to God as though he has forsaken you. But you will know that you have his help and guidance when you DO get through the challenge.  The attitude you take on right when you feel you can't take it any more will probably be God's hand lifting you right up to carry you through it. There is that infamous poem called 'footsteps' and in the picture there is only one set of footprints.. God carries us when we are weary because to him, we are so light. :) That is the whole concept and it's because we are so important to him, we are each his child.

When I get into a situation which is hardcore and I can't see a way out or through or around, I end up going right over it, embrace it, and then challenge it to challenge me. By doing this the obstacle loses its power to hurt me. If I were up against some horrible monster with teeth and drool no doubt I would say 'COME ON!! DO YOUR WORST!!'.

There are some disasters in life we cannot avoid or stop, they will come at us no matter what we do - why be frightened? Face them and embrace them, you will learn something about yourself and gain strength and a source to your natural creativity to handle change. Let them wipe you out or mess up your mind so that you can't enjoy the future and you are lost. 

Where I would be crushed by a loss I try my best to feel what I need to feel on my own but still find something good to look forward to in life. While I can see hope in the future the present pain can be released safely. I dont see the point in suicide, it's defeatist.

The key factor to me is taking a change in perspective when there is a problem to be faced. What in this situation can challenge me to be a better person? Losing my income and life savings ? - I can live on less and more simply, I can use less of the earth's resources not drive a car, walk more be healthier and fitter, talk to people more, be more sociable, I can find other ways to earn money, I can make do with what I've got, I can be more creative and positive. I will get out there and work with other people and be happier and contented. 

In fact losing my livelihood has made me feel better about myself. I appreciate the little things in life so much more, I notice animals and nature so much more, I appreciate my own ideas, my spirit feels lighter, better. And, I dont worry about what I am going to do next because I have lots of ideas to work on.

Losing my house? This challenge has helped me because now I am not alone all the time and I am travelling more, which I love. I felt my world was stagnating living in a rented house which I felt limited in to continue to a fixed and unhealthy isolated lifestyle. Without a home I feel stressed but there are lots of places opening up, opportunities to share with people, to no longer be alone, this is positive I am not afraid to move to a new area, I feel liberated from a stagnant past and hopeful about the future.

There is no obstacle that I, you, we, anybody can't get through. Believe me because I know this is true. Having a connection to God from within and in my outer experience of God in nature, miracles, people, love and light in the universe, I am able to get through.

God has a message to me which I always try to think of in tough times, it is this and its a nice ryhme to remember:

No matter what you do, I am going to make all of your dreams come true.

Isnt that the coolest? He cares and loves us so much. And this is really what he wants for all of us.

I was reading recently about the loss of spirit in people recovering from Cyclone Katrina in the United States. I wish I was there to help everyone of you!! Hang in there, it will be ok!!! Of course I can only imagine what it must have been like and to be there now patching up the wreckage, so many people losing hope, so much loss and tragedy. It brings me to tears thinking of it. I wish I could come over and help!

Believe me now is not the time to give up!!! There is a brighter future ahead for all of you, for all of us. God will provide a way forward - there is all the hope that you want for the taking! Do not give up!

Please read my blog!! I have lots of words of hope for everyone / anyone living through challenging times.

DON'T SETTLE for LESS THAN a happy life!!!

Please everyone / anyone who reads this:

HAVE FAITH

DON'T GIVE UP!!!

Aug 26, 2006 at 13:21 o\clock

Back to Basics

Mood: Modest
Listening to: Clock ticking

Hi Bloggers... it is I.. the un-read, un-accomplished and terminally apologetic Isha,  returning to lavish my blog with words of my challenging journey. And believe me it IS a challenge!!

Recently a short medical visit for a check up landed me in hospital for 6 weeks. A large chunk of life flitted away uselessly. I earnt no money and moved in no direction but back. Not to mention the experience was quite traumatic, pesky doctors with their 'medical models'. 

I felt that I was lining up to become an experiment and keenly wished to leave. The days snailed past, minutes making up hours... towards the end I could barely sleep from the stress of just being there wasting my time. Finally, I realised that the hospital stay could have been avoided and cursed at the loss of 6 weeks of my life, the severing of my confidence, the loss of my faith in life and felt depressed and frustrated by all the outcomes including the weight gain (size 8 to size 12)!!

Now, I am again looking at my direction. Before this hospital stay things were cruising. I had made a pack of guidance cards with beautiful artwork on them, the idea being to produce and sell.. I was in the midst of changing my career direction anyway. Made-over a house turning it from a frumpy messy old dump into a gleeming mansion full of potential and pouring out with heritage and spirit.

I had hope about the future and of no longer being alone... but, I realised that the person I was going to trust was probably not trustworthy - I freaked out realising the danger I was in and wrote him not to contact me again, even talked with the police about how to get him to leave me alone. !!He scared the hell out of me - he still does. He is still being cruel and unpredictable, I am still afraid.

About to go Northward to the tropics to continue things up there - find a new mansion to revive, write and try to get published.. ? Eeeek! Must go.

Thanks to anyone who is reading and cheerio.