Lonely Sunday
Mood: Really not that happy
Listening to: Radio surf
Hi bloggers.. well, I am back, that last message was because I received some good news about an opportunity to travel to a new land.. ...the one before - well, that is what angst is all about.
Sometimes having to move someplace else is the biggest hassle I could ever imagine and I am not young, I dont have as much energy for all that stuff these days.. ( heartbreak can sap your energy. ) but!!!
If we dont keep moving in some way, we would probably cease to exist.!
Today I have lonely sunday syndrome.... my friends - ?? well, I cant find them!!.. I seem to waste my time figuring out and working toward a brighter future that seems to always be 'just out of reach'.. I wonder if I have some serious frustration to deal with here.. ha ha.. definitately!!
Two great things on the journey of late.. two of the best live music performances I have seen in my life within the span of a week..!!
Tuesday or so went to a job interview then realised it was the same day that Nickleback were playing and it was right down the road.. I have heard some of their music, they have there good songs.. they look alright..and there is that 'not so nice song' but hey, the good songs outweigh the bad songs so lets go!! Withdraw the contents of my bank account and go buy ticket... yippee to feel like a person who is alive..!!
Anyway, did not have time to get home and change so turned up in my corporate look (a little embarassed..) oh, and alone. Who knows and who cares what people thought of me.. the show was excellent.. wow. very very rock.. awesome... so much talent in that band ..obviously very inspired.. but, scary..
That was a Tuesday or something.. the rest of the week I think I have been dawdling around at my home contemplating and trying to talk people into giving me jobs.. I have as poverty obsession.. without money, I cant access things I need, I cant meet people, I have programmed myself to thinking like this anyway.. There may be a challenge here for myself - what talent do I have that I can exploit??... Do I really need to 'work for the man'..? It is likely that if I get off my proverbial ...... I could make work for myself.. ra ra.
So... every other night at home alone with my cat... bla bla.. no human contact during the day.. I AM GOING TO GO NUTSS IF I DONT GET OUT OF HERE!!!!!!!!!... saturday **ck this!! I am going to the pub!! Bravely heads to Sydney to attend CD Launch of unknown bands.. (can be dammm hard to keep your chin up when you got nobody to hang with) - you think about it!
So.,... well, kinda cool actually.. very top quality performances.. more stars in the making here.. actually met some people !!
had a conversation!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
