Mood: Free floating
Listening to: Hail storm
Here we go folks.... the countdown to middle age... yikes!!! Tommorrow I enter 'official middle age'.. hitting 35 quite nicely at about 6pm EST....I guess I can now say with all honesty that I am 'over the hill and heading down the other side' ...... funny that it seems like I havent made it to the top of the hill exactly.. ..
Rationalising the whole 35 year old business.. I am looking for what I have achieved and associated 'milestones' which should be evident.. marriages, kids, cars, houses, land, investments, salary, promotions, awards, invitations to events and presence on committees... I wish!!!! Ha ha..
I am afraid all I have to show for my age is my wisdom.. which is why I am here, to spill it all out in the hope someone benefits..
On the free floating journey about the community I notice mothers and their kids and think 'gee I am definitely missing out..' but, if I think about it from an estoeric / new age perspective it could be that for some reason I do not / did not need to have kids or havent had any yet.. etc.... maybe that path of life wasnt meant for me?..?? I guess it is a compliment in a way.. dont need to have any of my own, cause there are so many around anyway... it may be that I am some kind of earth mother to everyone... and dont need to develop my 'mothering skills' anyway.. :)
Its a nice thought.. it makes up for the lack of actual mothering opportunities I have at present.. I found some cute pets in the pet store today.. one kitten in particular took to me like he was my child and where have I been all his life etc etc... I think I will be heading back there to buy him in the near future.. the puppies in the store were all a little tired and indifferent.. obviously the kitten knew a good meal ticket when he saw one..
Not sure what I am doing for the great 35 years alive day tommorrow.. Was thinking about a hang gliding experience or dive trip.. gotta spoil myself after all - Im worth it!!!!..... havent been to the grocery store today.. I am just about given up on prince charm-alot showing up now... Whatever, he is probably too late anyway.. by the time he finds me, my eggs will be all dried up!
Cheerio bloggers..
