http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife basically this blog right here, is about me. how i'm feeling, my opinions, really just a place for me to express my thoughts, emotions and all that with people. thanks to all the people who leave comments, i find it really helps to get other people opinions on things, cause it does matter to me. en Invisiblefreak1 Invisiblefreak1 Wed, 31 Dec 2008 13:07:12 +0100 daily 1 well people, i doubtr anyone does, but if you wish to keep reading about my life story, how boring, i am making a new account, a fresh start, my account name will be Musiclife95, my blog will be called 'The utterly boring life of me'   Kind regards, Leigh-Ann Wed, 31 Dec 2008 13:07:12 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Last-entry-for-this-account/17/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Last-entry-for-this-account/17/ well people, i doubtr anyone does, but if you wish to keep reading about my life story, how boring, i am making a new account, a fresh start, my account name will be Musiclife95, my blog will be called 'The utterly boring life of me'   Kind regards, Leigh-Ann Wed, 31 Dec 2008 13:06:44 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Last-entry-for-this-account/16/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Last-entry-for-this-account/16/ Well...... lets begin with whats happened since my last entry. not only have i been battling a serious case of depression, but i have also been having huge fights with my mothe who i recently found out doesn't like who i am, i'm falling behind at school, basically the entire school hates me, half my family hates me, i got raped last week and have to go to court next week, so really my life seems to be going down the drain. and i thought i was depressed before. i'm not giving up, i'm just saying it would be nice if everyone would just give me a break. whether they believe me or not........ i am trying. my entire life, all i've wanted was for my life to get back on track. its starting to now. no ones helped me, apart from the family that does still love me for me. but for most of my journey through these hard years, the only person that truly helped me, was myself. i know, a million other people have far worse lives than me, and if i could say... Tue, 10 Jun 2008 14:11:49 +0200 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/My-life-now./15/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/My-life-now./15/ it seems no matter what i do, the entire world judges me by what they see, it doesn't matter to them how hard i try, no matter what i do they treat me like i'm a freak, an outcast without even giving me a chance to show who i really am. sometimes i just wish i could....throw a computer screen at them!  i'm sick of feeling like no one cares! i'm being suffocated by this person everyone seems to think i am. just because i'm quiet and don't say much doesn't mean i'm a freak, i don't say much because i don't have anything to say, and im quiet because i don't see the point in talking if theres nothing to talk about. ! i'm so fucking sick of acting like a goody little two shoes jsut to keep everyone happy!!! so u know wat, if u don't like me fine, jsut dont treat me like i have the plague or something. Tue, 20 May 2008 10:02:59 +0200 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/I-am-who-i-am/14/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/I-am-who-i-am/14/ i'm so sick off hearing about people in hospital from being beaten up, or guys killing animals, or about bullying problems at schools on the news. mankind from all i know is cruel. seriously, some people beat up others just cos they feel like it, some people purposfully try and make other people lives hard, like bullys at schools,  and some people like to torture other living things like animals and birds just for their own pleasure, and then theres always the murderers,pedifilers,rapists,and all that i mean seriously, WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THIS?!?!?!!!! some people are seriously fucked up and wat can i do about it, nothing, nadda! i have no idea how these people can live with themselves, knowing they've probably ruined someones life! yea sure i know people make mistakes, but if they don't give a shit about wat they do then i wish i could rip their eyes out through their fucking ass. thats all i really have to say at the moment. (soz to the ppl who got offended by this but... Thu, 24 Apr 2008 13:25:54 +0200 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Mankind-is-fucked-up/13/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Mankind-is-fucked-up/13/ well to be quite honest i'm seriously pissed off at yself right now. see i really REALLY like this guy, we'll call him bob =P and he's really this amazing guy, he's nice,funny,handsome, and all that, and all i can do is be a wimp and not even talk to him!! we went to primary school together and now we go to middle school together. we've had all these moments that i thought could only happen in movies, like when you stare into each others eyes at a distance and they just lock, and everything seems to go into slow motion lol i know it sounds ridiculas but it happened between me and him. everytime i see him its like my insides just melt and someones sqeezing the air out of me well away from that subject, i've been thinking about what i want to do with my life, and i've always with all my heart wished i could become a singer, or be the singer in a band. i know theres probably a million and 1 other people who wish the same thing, but i just can't help it =]... Sat, 19 Apr 2008 06:55:28 +0200 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/I-can-t-help-it/12/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/I-can-t-help-it/12/ so basically this blog i'm doing right here is just for all you people who feel life isn't really worth living or that you have no reason to live, all i can really say is i know how you feel, trust me! if you give life a chance, there are so many wonderful things to live for, you may not see them now, but i promise if you just hold on you'll see them soon enough. if you feel like no1 cares about you, who really cares? there is always at least 1 person who would do anything for you even if you don't know it. just keep a smile on your face and keep your head up high. if you feel like there is no reason to live you couldn't be more wrong =] think about the good things, like friends,love,dancing in the rain, rollercoasters,music!! think of all the compliments you've recieved and forget the nasty remarks, remember all the good times and look forward to many more! Have hope, don't give up and keep your head up high and before you know it, you'll be... Tue, 15 Apr 2008 11:12:26 +0200 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/For-the-people-who-feel-alone/11/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/For-the-people-who-feel-alone/11/ we give in a horrible world. kids die everyday from taking drugs, of cancer from smoking, from killing themselves because of depression, of terrorist bombs going off. we can't blame anyone else apart from ourselves for what our world has become. because we did this. pollution,drugs,war,these are just some of the major problems that are killing our planet. think about all the times you've walked by a homeless person, and not even had the smallest thought of helping them. think about all the times you've heard on tv some kid died by killing temselves because of depression. think about all the times you've heard of a war going, where millions of innocent people die because of mankinds greed. i may only be 13, but i'm not an idiot. i won't be surprised if mankind one day ruins the planet and eventually do something that will kill us all. i honestly believe this will happen one day. Thu, 03 Apr 2008 12:14:08 +0200 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/we-live-in-a-horrible-world./10/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/we-live-in-a-horrible-world./10/ i feel...........nothing inside me. i feel like i just have no more energy to care or even breathe. my body feels heavy, with every move i make i feel heavier. if i do feel anything, its sadness. i can't help it. i'm trying so god damn hard to get my old life back, but it seems no matter how hard i try, somethings holding me back. i've never wanted to die. i love life. but at the moment i'm not sure how much longer i can take this. at school everyones always asking me if i'm ok or if i want to talk, and all i can do is sit there and stare up at the sky, wishing this pain would just leave me alone. i can tell people are starting to get really worried about me. its only at school though, most of the time i can hide my pain at home, so i don't worry my family. its like i have 2 lives. the first one is the life where i'm just a depressed little person whom nobody cares about, and she doesn't even care about herself anymore, and then theres the girl who is still... Sun, 17 Feb 2008 01:15:30 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/I-feel-nothing/9/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/I-feel-nothing/9/ WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!!!! i hate myself because i feel so lonely all the time, even when i'm around people and no matter what i do i can't shake this feeling, i feel like i'm drowning in it and theres no escape. i wish i could be happy again, like i used to be, everything was fine until one day BOOM! *hey i'm depression i'm going to take over you* can anyone please help me? i've felt like this the past 2yrs of my life and i know for a fact that now one on the planet should have to feel like this.   Fri, 11 Jan 2008 14:16:56 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/WHATS-WRONG-WITH-ME/8/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/WHATS-WRONG-WITH-ME/8/ No one should have to live their lives with that feeling of hopelessness in their hearts, and complete and utter misery. i'm one of the unfortuate ppl who have had to put up with this. there is no one word to describe the pain, the only word i can think of is alone. Alot of horible things have happened to me in my life, things that can haunt a person forever, in a way, i feel as if i'm trapped in a prison, a prison of my own misery. I wish i could smile, just once, without crying straight after. I wish i could sleep, just once, without a throbbing headache from crying. I wish i didn't have to lie, every time i say i'm fine.  Why do i always feel as if no one can here me every time i scream out for help? i always fear that maybe i'm to far gone to be saved from this feeling. There...is....hope. i will not succumb to this feeling any longer. i wil not surrender to my depression. i have to learn to stand on my own two feet, learn to... Thu, 27 Dec 2007 02:49:27 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Is-there-any-hope/7/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Is-there-any-hope/7/ I'm cryin everyday again, at just the thought, of how lonely i feel. True. i have a loving family around me, a few friends, but yet i still feel completely alone. My body is in physical pain from how lonely i feel, its like, i can't sleep, or eat, and i have this endless emty feeling inside of me. all the joy of the holidays left me a long time ago. Have you ever woken up one morning, and you feel like you could cry all day? try having that feeling every single day. I've lost..... all my pride. I've forgotten what it feels like to be happy. Mon, 24 Dec 2007 06:17:27 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/No-one-should-feel-this-alone/5/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/No-one-should-feel-this-alone/5/ well once again i'm 100% miserable at just the thought of how many rules and regulations there are in this world, sure most of them i can understand but the number of pointless ones there are is ridiculas!sorry spelling. it really does make you feel small, like your trapped. All my life, i've never felt happy or anywhere near greatful for being alive. i am grateful for a few things though, like my friends, and family, but at the end of the day it doesn't change how i feel..............about anything. Sat, 22 Dec 2007 07:53:24 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Trapped/4/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/Trapped/4/ Well yet again my friend *** is talking about nothing but lisa, its always lisa this and lisa that, he hardly ever talks about anything else and i'm starting to feel completely invisible again.  well i'm not friends with lisa anymore, i couldn't take being invisible anyore with her so i just stoped caring and no we're not friends,if ur wondering y its becoz she never did anything with the rest of her friends (including me) and only did stuff with eliza, when shes with her she forgets the rest of us excist, some friend she is. I've been crying alot more lately , i'm trying really hard not to but, its difficult. Michelles being her usual clingy self, man sometimes i wish i would just say 'STOP BEING A CLINGY NEEDY LITTLE FUCK!' to her but then she wold have a tantrum and make me out to be the bad guy, shes stealing my life!! she calls me at least once every single MOTHERFUCKING day and is the first one to ask me 2 hang out as soon as its... Tue, 11 Dec 2007 08:36:00 +0100 http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/STUPID-BORING-LIFE/3/ http://www.blogigo.com/myboringlife/STUPID-BORING-LIFE/3/