I can't help it!!
Mood: annoyed at myself
Listening to: please be mine the jonas brothers
well to be quite honest i'm seriously pissed off at yself right now. see i really REALLY like this guy, we'll call him bob =P and he's really this amazing guy, he's nice,funny,handsome, and all that, and all i can do is be a wimp and not even talk to him!! we went to primary school together and now we go to middle school together. we've had all these moments that i thought could only happen in movies, like when you stare into each others eyes at a distance and they just lock, and everything seems to go into slow motion lol i know it sounds ridiculas but it happened between me and him. everytime i see him its like my insides just melt and someones sqeezing the air out of me 
well away from that subject, i've been thinking about what i want to do with my life, and i've always with all my heart wished i could become a singer, or be the singer in a band. i know theres probably a million and 1 other people who wish the same thing, but i just can't help it =] i'm not trying to brag or anything, but i am a pretty darn good singer, everybody i sing to says if i tried i could go far, but i know its really a 1 in a BILLION chance that i'll acually make it. you have to think about how much money goes into just getting singing lessons, an agent, learning the guitar(cos i want to) and all that other stuff. and if i don't make it all that money will have gone to a worthless cause that didnt even get anywhere. its really quite depressing when you know your dream is something you will probably never achieve.
