More of Christ! More of Christ!
by James Smith,
1860
What is it my soul, which causes this uneasiness, this
dissatisfaction, this
deep inward yearning after something which you have not, or
do not at
present enjoy? I am not at rest. I am not rejoicing in God. I am not
singing
from the heights of Zion. Yet, I have no slavish fears, I have no
gloomy
doubts of my saving interest in Christ, I have no actual dread of
death or
the judgment. But I feel a desire to climb higher, to know
more, and to enjoy the power of religion within — as I have
not of
late. It seems to me that all my needs lead me to Christ, and
all my
desires go out toward Christ. I want — well, what do I
want?
I want to feel more of my NEED of
Christ. I
have imagined at times, that I could not have a deeper sense of my
need of
Christ, and of all that Christ is, and has — than I have already
experienced. But I am persuaded now that I may, and that only in
proportion
as I daily feel my need of Christ — shall I desire to know
him, trust
in him, and enjoy him. I know theoretically, that I need Christ in
every
office which he sustains, in every relationship which he
fills,
and in every character which he has assumed. I need him not
only to
rescue me from death — but to feed me, clothe me, teach me, keep me,
guide
me, and comfort me. I need him to do all for me, and all within
me — which either God, or my circumstances require. O to feel
more of my
need of Jesus, that I may not be happy one moment — but only
as I
look to him, lean on him, and receive from him!
I want to KNOW more of Christ. O how
little do I
really know of Christ! I have thought of him, spoken of
him,
and wrote about him — but how little I really know of
him. I
want to know more of the person of Christ, more of the grace
of Christ, and more of the work of Christ. I want to know
more of
Christ for me, and more of Christ within me. I want to
know
more of the words of Christ, and more of the heart of
Christ.
I want to know Jesus as God's Christ — and as my Christ. I want so
to know
Christ, as never to doubt his love, question his veracity, or to
fear his
coming. Yes, so to know him — as to devote myself
wholly to
him, and be ready at any time to depart and be with him!
I want more AFFECTION for Christ. Yes, I
want to
love Jesus — and to feel that I love him. I want to love him —
and to
prove by my conversation, conduct, and spirit — that I do so love
him. There
ought to be no doubt on my own mind on this point — but I should be
ready to
say, "I love him — because he first loved me." There ought to be no
cause or
occasion for any who know me, to question whether I love him. O no,
his love
should so influence my conduct, and his love should so season
my
conversation — that all about me may feel sure, that if I love
anyone, I
love Jesus. O that the Holy Spirit would shed abroad the love of
Christ in
my heart more and more — that my love to him may be as strong as
death!
I want to realize more sensibly my UNION
with
Christ. Christ is the head of the church, and all the true members
of that
church are in union with him. I cannot but believe that I am one
with
Christ. I often feel as if I could not live without Christ. But I
want
daily and hourly to live under the impression — that
Christ and
my soul are one. That I am a member of his body, of his flesh and of
his
bones. What privilege can exceed this — to be united to Christ!
Then,
because he lives — I shall live also. Then he will use his influence
for me,
spend his wealth upon me, and desire to have me with him to behold
his
glory. O Jesus, dwell more sensibly in my heart, and let me dwell
more
sensibly in you!
I want more COMMUNION with Christ. Communion
flows from union — and proves its vitality. No union to
Christ —
no communion with Christ. And if there is no communion with
Christ —
then there is no evidence of union to Christ. The branch being
one with the vine — receives its life, sap, and nourishment
from the
vine. Just so, we being one with Christ — receive our spiritual
life,
holiness, and happiness from Christ. The member lives, grows,
and is
strong — because it is in union with the head. Just so, the
believer
lives, grows, and is strong — because he is in union with Christ,
the head.
In proportion as we realize our union with Christ, will be
the
sweetness and constancy of our communion with Christ. And in
proportion to the sweetness and constancy of our communion with
Christ — will be the assurance of our union to Christ. O for
more
sweet, sanctifying, and soul-ennobling communion with Jesus!
I want more ASSIMILATION to Christ. What I
see in
Christ I admire, and I admire all that I see in Christ. But admiration
is not enough. I want to be like Jesus, just like him —
altogether like him. The more I am with him, and the more I see of
him — the
more I sigh, cry, and long to be like him! I think one may live at
such a
distance from Christ, and have so little to do with Christ — that he
may not
be very anxious or desirous to be like him. But I am sure that we
cannot be
much in his company, or be led by the Holy Spirit, to see much of
his moral
and spiritual beauty — but we shall desire to be fully like him.
At
times, this seems to be the one thing needful with me, the one thing
that I
desire of the Lord — that I may be like Jesus. But it is not always
so, it is not sufficiently so — therefore I cannot but wish
for more
assimilation to Christ.
I want to be fully POSSESSED of Christ.
Not only
to be like him — but to be with him — not only with
him in
grace — but with him in glory! I am sure that I shall
never be
perfectly satisfied — until I have Christ always with me — until I
am always
with him in his Father's home and kingdom. This is promised me, I
must
believe the promise, and wait for its fulfillment. Soon it will be
true in
my experience, "Absent from the body — present with the Lord." I
shall
"depart and be with Christ — which is far better" than being here,
distant
from him, and so often sighing for the enjoyment of him! Then I
shall
possess Christ! Then I shall be fully satisfied with the
presence of
Christ.
O Lord, let me have a deeper sense of my saving
interest
in Christ now, let me enjoy more of him while on earth — and then I
know
that I shall be satisfied when I awake up in his glorious likeness!
Now it seems to me that these things go
together, or
naturally follow each other:
In proportion as I feel my need of Christ
— I
shall desire to know Christ — to know him fully, to know him
experimentally.
In proportion as I know Christ — shall I
desire to
set my affections on Christ, and to love him with an
unquenchable
love.
Just in proportion to my love to him —
will be my
desire to realize close and vital union to him.
In proportion as I realize my union to
Christ —
shall I want to have and enjoy communion with Christ.
In proportion as I enjoy communion with
Christ —
shall I long for assimilation to Christ.
And as I long for assimilation to Christ —
shall I
desire fully to possess him, and to be forever with him!
Reader, do you know anything about these
things? I
have written these lines out of my own heart, and they express the
feelings
and desires of my soul.
If I know anything — I do know in a
degree my
need of Christ.
If I desire anything — I do desire to know
Christ.
If I wish to love at all — I wish to love
Christ supremely.
If I prize anything — I prize union
to Christ.
If I desire anything — I desire communion
with Christ.
If I aspire to anything — I aspire to be
like Christ.
If I am persuaded that I shall be satisfied
with
anything — I am persuaded that I shall be satisfied with the presence
and possession of Christ.
All my religion finds its center in
Christ!
My whole creed begins, goes on, and ends with
Christ!
I value doctrines — but I set more value
on
Christ!
I prize ordinances — but I think more
highly of
Christ!
With me it is — Christ first, Christ middle,
Christ last!
Reader, is it so with you?