Wyldfey Wyshes

Mood: distant
Listening to: All American Rejects

   Well X-mas is over and I can personally say mine kicked ass. The exertion did too, sadly. I'm feeling alot better. My body is used getting used to alll the pills, so I'm sleeping less and not zombie-like. Heh as much. I still can't get into myspace guess I'll just make another one there. Because who the hell knows who reads this anymore. I want to restart my website on blogger, but I also want to dedicate a lot more to any business. I NEED $$. & I couldn't go job hunting if I wanted to. But...I got a webcam. So I'm going to advertise my readings more. If I CAN get any gov help for these bills piling up. I don't know if I can have one with my savings..paltry as they may be. (almost dying is expensive)

It's funny ppl who hardly know me. Worry. & It always suprises me. My adoptive uncle Roger will offer me a beer, but someone else;whom out of anyone I'd expect it from least.. Wouldn't give me a beer if his life depended on it.Then says "I'm too important to die over some stupid-shit".Creepy~ Another friend gave me 20 min lecture whilst we smoked a joint on the philosophy of the fact I'd prob be dead if I had moved when planned and how everything happens for a reason. Frickin potheads. I spent 15 mins convincing a friend/clerk @ the store into selling me 2 of those orange with vitamin beers I drink. Most others don't even drink in front of me.

How was this rule enforced around me, seemingly in the ether since they can't have all got together..It's annoyed the piss out of me a few times. But I appreciate it...Not that I have a life right now or see hardly anyone. & Nenie & me might kill each other. We've both been so tired. I miss the insanity of my sissy's hehe.

BUT I AM SOOO READY TO JUST FUCKING MOVE. dAMNIT ♦

 I plan to go back to myspace, create a new one. the idiots on there can't seem to answer me. I'm on FUBAR too. under Wyldfey   ;)

Mood: Reflective
Listening to: Enya

Well, hell's bells. I've been out for awhile due to another wonderful hospital stay. I'm so weak and it sucks. It's been a few weeks and I'm still stuck on the couch. Lucky me, it is comfortable.  It was more serious this time..Heart failure and or heart attack. Not the first one apparently.They used the paddles on me twice. Then I was blessed with the most asinine male nurses . Then with this defib heart vest.

Which since I haven't been unconscious yet when it begins it's SHRILL SHREAKING and BEEPING to "warn me about my weak hearts it immediatly pounds and I jump.....

I went to the hospital this time in an ambulance, they're still not sure why I almost died.
 I went to the dentist, later in the afternoon I got my meds and go home. He'd given me a Zpack, antibiotics that I've taken a hundred times because I'm allergic to penicillin and sulfa drugs, most normal drugs ppl can take. He'd also given me a mild pain killer. IDK I remember picking up my prescriptions and not really anything after that.
I'm about to actually eat ...I had a coke float and some salad and juice in the hospital. Not much else the entire time. I threw everything up. Since I got home I've just been eating cranberry slushies, a lot of fruit, & my vitamin waters. Luckily I'd just stocked up because I'd expected to be working packing & moving.  OH PLUS the 12 pills a day I have to take now for my heart and god knows what all. & Only 3 happy ones. Brighten my day.
  

Their only guess as to what happened is I had an allergic reaction to the antibiotic.. They tested me for all sorts of things but I was ready to leave before they found anything concrete. 

 Nenie said I came home ate something, took those meds & just went out of my head about an hour later. I stood up said I'm gonna go take a nap  Went into her room and proceeded to keep throwing up awful green and yellow stuff. I got in the bathtub 3x's. Then began laying on her bed naked & wet; much to her frustration. Kept telling her NO to the E.R. Finally I said if Krys, my sister came and got me I'd go to the hospital. I didn't want her having to deal with all the B.S. Nenie couldn't talk me out of that but I finally agreed on an ambulance, apparently.

   I remember NONE of this. I vaguely remember picking up my scripts frm CVS and eating. Nothing else.
Then when they finally got me in to E.R  I flat-lined twice. Two times. They didn't think I was gonna make it through the night so they had called my sister to be there just in case, & she had to come a long way. 4 days I don't know wtf was going on. They told my sis 'we don't think she'll make it' to 'she might' to 'we think' she'll live. Nice

 it's gonna be a few more weeks now before I move..*sigh* prob months

 

 I think this is everything. It's been awhile since I wrote, period. & I've purged enough. Ironic I'm using a german blog. But I like it...and I'm testing several..

I lost wyldfey.com So now it's wyldfey.net...or at least it will be when I'm up for html hell.

 

Hope everyone is rockin