A Penny For Thought

Mood: Tired
Listening to: TV

Ok guys so this entry is a  little different from the others.There will be no poetry,no spoken word,just real life.

I'm beginning to feel like my life is at a stand still,I can't go backwards and I can't go forward.No one can help me through this.Everytime I feel like I need some time alone someone jumps up and believes that they can fix whatever my problem may be for me just by listening.I don't always want to talk,I just wish that people would back off and allow me to do what I am going to do.I'm 20 years old and my mother still thinks that she can rock me and tell me that everything will alright.I don't want to be touch,or talked to I just want to be left alone.

I know some of you might not understand and may even be thinking that everyone needs someone,and I agree to a point.Everyone does need someone but we don't always need them in our face.Sometimes just knowing that the person who loves you is there if you need them is enough.

I pray that this mood goes away and I find a way to move forward because it's never good to go backwards.When I find that something to help me move you will be the first to know.

 

 

Much Love ,

Alana

Mood: Thoughtful
Listening to: TV

This is a poem I wrote when I was 16 and I'm 20 now but it is still one of my favorites.

 

Black on black crime

Is what I see everyday,

Somebody's baby is always taken away

The sound of the gunshot,

It rings in my ear

I can only imagine how a mother feels,

When someone tells her

"Your baby is no longer here."

We do this to each other.

Why must we continue to hurt one another?

Do the tears of the mothers mean nothing to you?

Some people say:

"Well, what can I do?"

Unite!

Stand up!

Put the guns down

It shouldn't make you feel good

When you put another brother in the ground

Black on black crime

That's what I see everyday,

And everyday I wish I could just...

Turn away.